It is obvious from my posts here that I have become increasingly narcissistic.
I worry that I take up too much space in other peoples’ minds, an inversion of what is actually the case (that it’s my mind I spend too much time in).
Why have I been this way? Closed, echoing in and out.
It’s strange to realize your avoidance, to see that your mental state has been the opposite of what you’ve imagined. I’ve lost my train of thought.
But that’s more or less how it is: I don’t follow the tracks that I laid, long ago. I’m not sure what I’m doing. But it feels like I’ve been lost in the woods.
A strange place, where all of the trees have eyes.